Lists
Things I never ate as a child but eat now.....
Cheese
Mayo
Peanut Butter Sandwiches
Peas
spinach
Pears
yogurt
Cottage Cheese
Brussel Sprouts
Cabbage
Baked Beans
hummus
Jelly Doughnuts
Things I didn't want to try then and I still don't
broccoli
Jelly Beans, Pez, Twizzlers...Most any candy that isn't chocolate
Coffee
Refried Beans
Places I have visited or lived that Were Cool
Moose Jaw, Saskatchewan, Canada
Johnstown, PA
Goshen, IN
Toledo, OH
Detroit, MI
Castaway Cay, Bahamas
Oswego, NY
Adams, NY
Punxatawney, PA
People who I would thank if I received the nobel peace prize
God
My Parents
My Sister Mel
Ed and Deb..Margaret and Kevin
My brother Mike and his Wife my sister Janet
My Friends...H squared, Hollywood who taught me to relax and to have fun again
The Little People..Literally...All my "girls" Caroline Kerri Megan Laurissa Hannah Jessica...Chicks who still play house are cool people to spend time with
The Moms/The Mentors
Donna, Donna, Jeanette, Annie
My teachers current and past...Sheval...Mrs. Spinelli
Those who inspired me to live life to the fullest...Jim...Tim...Grandpa
My Service Adventure Crew who taught me so much and were so patient with me and helped me to grow a little bit
Anna the bravest person I know
Movies I loved
I am Sam
October Sky
Finding Nemo
Princess Bride
Ferris Buellers Day Off
Lord of the Rings
Movies I didn't like or never finished
Chicago
A Nights Tale
The hours
Favorite ways to procrastinate
Watching TV
Bloggin
Checkin e-mail
Baking
Talking on the phone
Eating Chocolate
The Best Day Ever
Watchin the Sun Set across the Ocean from the Disney Cruise Ship with Caroline and Jeanette
The Best Thing I have ever eaten
Home Baked Chocolate Cake I made with Ganoche Frosting made with heavy cream and bittersweet chocolate
The Best Compliment I have ever received
"You are going to make a great mother some day"
"Not all who wander are lost" Tolkien
Remember that scene in Jerry McQuire where he stays up real late and he is writing down all his thoughts in to this big Mission Statement and he puts it out there and everyone thinks he is crazy but maybe in the same way they also think he is brilliant.
Sometimes I feel like my life is a string of those moments. It seems sometimes that I embrace that notion. The way of being and of living on the edge and having such a passion for something that it makes you abandon all other things that are hindering that one thing. I think it is that passion that often makes me unable to prioritize effectively but at the same time has allowed me to accomplish so much.
I find myself tunneling my way through the maze and at times feelin more lost then anything else. Perhaps that is ok. In order to find your way through a maze you can't have fear about being lost. You just have to plow your way through seeking hard after the prize at the end. It doesn't matter so much that you can't see the prize then. What matters is that it is there...It is real and it is worth feeling, well at times, little and lost and small. That is in a way more of what the maze of life is about. Maybe we aren't really lost though. Because we are not really alone in this walk through the maze. Maybe realizing that we never were alone is what it is all about.
The concept of being alone is hard. I find myself sometimes gripped with the fear of being alone. I wonder as much as I know I am not alone and never have to be because of Jesus that I still struggle in the desire to have that one human relationship which will satisfy me. I know of course intellectually that no one is completed by another human being. I am complete on my own and perfect only in Christ and that Mr Right will only be able to in many ways to perfectly complement me. He will be the one, of course, that God has planned and in that way he will be perfect.
The struggle is always nonetheless always there until I rebuke it. I mean I am human and have a desire and a God given desire to be a wife and mother someday. I don't believe for one minute that God does not desire to give me the desires of my heart but I also know because he loves me more then anyone that he has prepared the prefect time. To quote my sister..I jest you not...She said this today "I hate being patient, it such a waste of time"
And so here I am in that place....That waiting place....I feel like I am wandering...But I am not afraid..As much as I would like to be angry or sad or confused...I know I can't...Because He is holding my hand.
What Happened To Paul Wagner?
Last night I had the privilege of listening to a former professor at the college I attend. Our college ministry Basic sponsored the event. In the late seventies Paul Wagner became a Christian and shared his views with students and ended up getting fired over it. Some twenty years later he returned again to the college and he spoke to a room full of students about how the Lord has worked in his life. He talked about all the ways in which he has been able to minister. It was just a really great time and we had a wonderful turnout of close to 100 or more.
After the Basic thing we all hung out in the dining hall and then we went to my friend liz's suite. We had lots of fun including a game of sardines played on all 10 floors of her dorm. Sardines is like backwards hide and go seek. One person hides and everyone looks. John and I found Chris first but I'm not braggin'. It was fun to just relax and hang out. A nice respite from all the school work and things I have been doing lately.
Speakin' of which I had better get back to that now.....
"Lend me some suga..I am your neighbor"
It is funny how quickly new music tends to bombard us and we take to it like a duck to water. Suddenly that song marks a part of our life forever.
What is the latest song to pervade my subconscious when I am trying to work? That outkast song...."Shake it like a Polaroid picture" "You...you know what to do" "Lend me some suga- I am your neighbor"
Things that we are so into now will soon be sent to the one hit wonder vault never to return. For example...how many of you remember the song from Titanic? Celine belting out "Near ...far... wherever you are..My heart will go on and on" Yeah I loved that song in 1997 but now just the thought of it makes me cringe.
Here is a list to jog your memory..Where were you when?
1. We didn't start the fire
2. Don't Worry...Be Happy
3. Locomotion
4. Love Shack
5. Somewhere out there
6. Kokamo
7. Hangin tough
8. Tomorrow
9. Who let the dogs out
10. Ice Ice Baby
Good Times my friends ................Good Times.
Adventures in Laundry (Don't be so quick to... walk away.... C'mon dry with me)
Today was laundry day. It was a great exodus to the Laundromat. Mel and I loaded the laundry into the car fording the river which has formed from all the snow which has melted from the 10 Ft banks. We had 5 baskets of laundry in all. I took it upon myself to wash, dry, fluff and fold all the massive laundry we have accumulated in two weeks.
So I was doing laundry and reading the latest in the required reading for childrens lit..."Whale Rider" and this guy walked in and he could have been a stunt double for Justin Timberlake. I had to laugh. Of course I am sure he was thinking I was some kind of stunt double for Brittany Spears (I get that all the time)
I have been taking 5 classes and working from the home office and attempting to maintain my high standard of domesticity which led up to the 4 legged chicken fiasco of this week (Read Mels Blog..link to the right) I think I need to perhaps get a tad more sleep. I made Korean bbq beef tonight with fried tofu and it tasted really good and I escaped without having anything I said end up being quoted to me.
In other news my crazy classes are actually, on occasion, fun. My Spanish professor is a laugh riot. He was born in Italy and has all sorts of strong opinions. For instance this week he was telling us how he never let his kids go to sleep overs, they slept in their own beds, he was informing us how sleepovers are orgies. He made me write sentences on the board on Friday and if it had been anywhere else I would have been nervous but when I am in his class I just want to laugh all the time.
Well I had better be getting back to work. I think I have procrastinated long enough. Next time I see Justin Timberlake I will be sure and get a photo and post it right here on my blog. Who said doing laundry was boring? Speaking of Photos I finally perfected the art of photo blogging. See the link "pics" to the right. I will leave you all now with this thought...Don't be so quick to ...Walk away...C'mon dry with me...Don't be so quick to ......Walk away...I'm gonna add the fabric softener before the end of this load....."
