Feels Like Home

For You have been my help, and in the shadow of Your wings will I rejoice.

So I have been really struggling in a lot of ways lately. I appreciate the patience and the prayers of those I care about and who care for me. It seems that the only way this is really going to get better is by doing one of the hardest things that I have ever had to do. There are a few people who know what I had to do. What I did was what God intended for me. It was one of the most humbling things that I have ever had to go through. But I did not go there alone. So I am slowly as the lyrics below describe"climbing out of the rubble". I will not struggle with this forever, I have faith that God will lift this burden soon. I have felt as Job did "I have no peace, no quietness; I have no rest, but only turmoil." and I have confirmation that feeling that way was not a result of my disobedience. I also have a feeling that I have not been left alone. I appreciate all the prayers of my friends and your words. There is no magic answer to what I am working through but there is some steps I have been able to take. I have spoken with others who have struggled in the same way and their testimony has been one which encouraged me. My thoughts this morning are on the following Psalm.
Psalm 63
7For You have been my help, and in the shadow of Your wings will I rejoice.
8My whole being follows hard after You and clings closely to You; Your right hand upholds me.
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"It's been a hard year
But I'm climbing out of the rubble
These lessons are hard
Healing changes are subtle
But every day it's

Less like tearing, more like building
Less like captive, more like willing
Less like breakdown, more like surrender
Less like haunting, more like remember

And I feel you here
And you're picking up the pieces
Forever faithful
It seemed out of my hands, a bad situation
But you are able
And in your hands the pain and hurt
Look less like scars and more like
Character

Less like a prison, more like my room
It's less like a casket, more like a womb
Less like dying, more like transcending
Less like fear, less like an ending

And I feel you here
And you're picking up the pieces
Forever faithful
It seemed out of my hands, a bad situation
But you are able
And in your hands the pain and hurt
Look less like scars

Just a little while ago
I couldn't feel the power or the hope
I couldn't cope, I couldn't feel a thing
Just a little while back
I was desperate, broken, laid out, hoping
You would come

And I need you
And I want you here
And I feel you

And I know you're here
And you're picking up the pieces
Forever faithful
It seemed out of my hands, a bad, bad situation
But you are able

And in your hands the pain and hurt
Look less like scars (x3)

And more like
Character"
-SaraGroves

# posted by Kate : 5/4/2004 07:48:41 AM

posted by Kate @ 5/04/2004 12:37:00 PM